Bidding adieu to 2006

Well, the year has got a mixed response to me. I was on high and lows both in terms of career and personal life, but the best part is that my doggedness remained remained in tact; i handled most of the things with cool and composure. There were almost no instaces where i lost my cool and raised my temper level. My promise to keep abey from thoughts of love and girls is definitely one of the most determined efforts i have put. Well but there was some sort of shake up inthe last quarter of yr in terms of personal life, it didnt matter atall cos i was never serious abt that; i leaved it for the time to decide and it got decided and the chapter got closed.


The month of January started with me celebrating new yr at home. Was very happy with the way term 2 shaped up and the grades i was getting. Term 3 was rather repeating of the same things i did last yr, but here were changes in courses and the profs who took the courses. Manfest Party rocked. I had experienced the best music of a DJ during that time.

February was routine academic thing ..... quiet uneventful (cos i couldnt recall) nothing happened. No valentines day either .... cos we had mid terms during that time.

Then came March . My summers at IBM was confirmed and i felt very happy abt that. the best part was that my Summer internship is in Hyderabad. i was given a project on Dashboards. and end terms started. i had horror experience with one course - Advanced Data Analysis. cos thr was s much to read and i didnt read even once. tried to manage with the slides of class. The hoorible course QAM III which had been alien to many of us; is shielded with a planned preperation and i was cofident of falling in the top quartile of the class.

April first week, I experienced my first flight experience. cos my summers company is paying for that. [:)]. Well my first flight was delayed!!! i had my worst day then. delay of Lucknow to
Delhi bound flight has made me even miss my Delhi-Hyderabad flight. any ways its a good learning experience as how to manage things. after a lot of confrontation with the air shara guys at the IGI airport after payment of additional money we r allowed to board alternative flight in the night. in 1 day we roamed ard in delhi, watched a move, did sum window shopping.

Back to Hyderabad, it feels nice to b at home for 2 months and also having fun with bose after 2 yrs. Well i dedicated my summers experience in a entire post . so i dont wanna elobrate much here.

May was also nothing much to mention apart from the jobless roaming inside office at IBM. and daily parties continued.

June.. gave my final presentation to IBM along with my report and got an excellent feed back from most of them. and bac to college .. entered second yr.

July.. hmm started to get in touch with old lost friends. spent loads of time on chat with them. mid terms happened for fourth term. Bought an IBM Thinkpad laptop.

August. had one of the horrible experience of getting the lowest in Stratman course. the lowest i hav ever scored in whole of my student life.... made a determined effort to fight bac in end term. term 4 was literally nothing much to do. all chill courses. except this core course starategic management.

September. went home for term break, celebrated my bday at home with my folks. Bought a Canon 7.2 MP Digicam. Dad was crazy abt the cam that he doesnt want to depart from it. Bac college. term 5 starts..... felt lil load as i had 4 important courses.

October.... i topped first time in a course and also the lowest in another course at IIM. Prolly i created the history in an IIM that a student got both A+ and a F grade in another course... felt little unstable with my F. as i failed agin in a course. but became vengeful.

November... started with arguing with my stratman prof. and it was a futile thing i did. i chuccked him off my thought. Finally every other guy in campus taged him as " The real pain in the ass", " All pain no gain" etc. Gave NCFM certification exam and cleared in securitiews module.

December came and end terms went for term 5. Got a long term break and had a gr8 time bac at home. started watching Friends. started liking it. watched it day and nite, became a fanatic. Term 6 was rather nothin much to do. Feeling too lazy to move my ass.

Well i wasnt able to recall how fast the days hav gone, i couldnt even remember most of the things.

This year i got in touch with lot of my intermediate classmates who r all doctors (most of them) after a break almost 8 years. It feels nice to cherish the things we did during our college days. Well coming bac to the main subject here, the second half of the yr was spent chatting online mostly with my long lost friends.

donno how to end this ......... just waiting for the party tonite to welcome the most important year in terms of career to me. Hoping that this new yr wd bring a lot of joy and happiness and success to each and every one of us. adios! Happy New Year
Welcome 2007, tata 2006

Hope is still on .......

Yup, my hope is still alive. Though all the specialists and experts in Otology have ruled out any thing that can be done. Still my hope has made me dream and made me reach greater heights, Its a matter of time that i will become a normal person again. I am still searching on google regularly if any where in this world any miracle had happened. There are hundreds n thousands of people across this world who are waiting for some miracle to happen like me, that would enlighten our lives.

Lots of wishes and dreams to be fulfilled in this life. Donno how many i would succeed. For the n th time another gal leaves me as i am half deaf [:D]. Kudos to u gals .... you have given me an opportunity to look for even better gal [:P]. for every 'n' th term there is 'n+1'.... Its an unending pursuit . no matter soul numbing, inevitable of the ending ... the journey itself is destination... Hope to find my 'n+1' gal soon [:)].........

I am speechless after reading this story....

A story is told about a soldier who was finally coming home after having fought in Vietnam. He called his parents from San Francisco."Mom and Dad, I'm coming home, but I've a favor to ask. I have a friend I'd like to bring home with me.""Sure," they replied, "we'd love to meet him."

"There's something you should know the son continued, "he was hurt pretty badly in the fighting. He stepped on a land mind and lost an arm and a leg. He has nowhere else to go, and I want him to come live with us."

"I'm sorry to hear that, son. Maybe we can help him find somewhere to live.""No, Mom and Dad, I want him to live with us.""Son," said the father, "you don't know what you're asking. Someone with such a handicap would be a terrible burden on us. We have our own lives to live, and we can't let something like this interfere with our lives. I think you should just come home and forget about this guy. He'll find a way to live on his own".

At that point, the son hung up the phone. The parents heard nothing more from him. A few days later, however, they received a call from the San Francisco police. Their son had died after falling from a building, they were told. The police believed it was suicide. The grief-stricken parents flew to San Francisco and were taken to the city morgue to identify the body of their son. They recognized him, but to their horror they also discovered something they didn't know, their son had only one arm and one leg.

The parents in this story are like many of us. We find it easy to love those who are good-looking or fun to have around, but we don't like people who inconvenience us or make us feel uncomfortable. We would rather stay away from people who aren't as healthy, beautiful, or smart as we are. Thankfully, there's someone who won't treat us that way. Someone who loves us with an unconditional love that welcomes us into the forever family, regardless of how messed up we are.

Courtesy : Dr Srikar Reddy (my pal).

Fortunately i have my parents who stood with me and accepted me the way i am and they never gave me any special treatment. And i am happy for that.

Friends are also always there for us. Its just a matter of time when we will meet such people. Just hope for the best things in life and be prepared to face the worst.

How true is this to my life.....

There is glory in chasing doomed dreams. There is valour in pursuing dreams destined to decay and die. There is manliness in tilting at windmills, even if some might label the act tragicomic rather than heroic.

It's a bit like wooing a beautiful, unattainable woman. For all the flirting and the occasional positive signals, you know from the beginning that there is never going to be a happily-ever-after, that your proposal will never be accepted.

Yet, the thrill is in the unending pursuit, no matter the soul-numbing inevitability of the ending. The journey itself is the destination.

--Nirmal Shekar

Winter snow during shiny summer ....

After a long time I gather time to write this blog. Though I am vella most of the time as I have taken all chill courses in this term, I wanted to write about my summer’s experience which had been the best so far in my life. I am glad that I enjoyed the pleasure of air conditioning at home which I bought at home for my mom and dad. New DVD player was in place at home with around 200 DVD’s of English, Hindi and Gulti movies. I spent most of my time watching these movies or going out with friends. My shape has changed a lot due to home influence. I went to club daily morning for swimming. This time I learnt back stroke and floating looking at sky with ease. I am thrilled to dive and play in water.

Summers at IBM is awesome. My guide is a very good mentor also the people at IBM were very considerate to cooperate with me in communicating. IBM office was around 14 kms from my place. Dad had holidays during summers so I used his bike to go to office daily.

Every other day I ran in to some new restaurant. A lot has changed in my city. I am glad that I visited many of the most happening eatouts in Hyderabad. To mention a few –Our Place, Water Front, Ohri’s, Angeethi, NKM Grand, Little Penang, The Escape Pub and many more. Ha, I missed all the places which allowed only couple entry L. I felt a little sad that I couldn’t go to Main Land China restaurant this summer, though it is the nearest place for me and Bose. I thought of going there before I left Hyderabad alas! Alack! My last few days before I left Hyderabad were hectic with my schedule at IBM and Bose’s office commitments didn’t permit us to.

I am happy that I have taken my parents out for a dinner at Ohri with my money. Mom always feels scary looking at the prices in the menu. Though she is a working woman, she avoids eating outside food. Since I am taking them out with my stipend she agreed. I missed giving treat to my sisters as they were busy when I was free. I some how skipped a friends party to attend my sister Swati’s birthday treat. She was glad that me and my brother gave her two boxes full of chocolates.

I was on a spending spree all the time. I bought a lot of new clothes, for the record I have bought the most expensive jeans I have ever bought- a Levi’s 501. Every time I dropped in a shopping mall, I ended up buying something either foot ware or t-shirts or trousers.

My only crib is that I partied a lot but none of the party had a gal. So sad to say. Bumping in to Hyderabad House and Pizza Hut had been common. I thought of making friends at IBM but my work involved only with the all the top bosses, so couldn’t find any guys who could talk to me freely. Most of the time in office I was on orkut, I used to spy others friend’s scrapbooks and pulling their leg. Orkut has become an addiction now, earlier it was blogging. When will I ever change??

I promised my self not to dream about imminent things but to live the present to the fullest and I am happy that I am keeping my promise. Life is coming with full of surprises and I am happy this way rather than dreaming and making it reality.

Few days ago I came across a school mate’s profile in orkut. She had been my crush in school J. Seeing her relationship status as married made me laugh like hell. I had a hearty laugh. I donno why. I don’t understand what made me laugh. I donno if I am dumb to act like that.

Ha about movies … Paurnami sucked big time. It was one of the biggest pain movies I have seen recently. Fanaa first half was ok. The second half gave me all double meanings with the emotions and body language of the protagonist. Blame it on my dirty mind.

And life goes on rocking :D ………….

Here I come..

After a long time i am back to my blog. Well i have deleted my earlier blog. its a hard decision as wheater to keep that blog or not. its very special to me . All my friends say that my blog reflected suffering in me . both in life and love. . Yes to some extent it really does pain me . If i recall my dreams, i get my eyes wet. I had fallen in love with a perfect stranger, tried hard to forget her and move on my path which i missed. i try to control myself moving on in life . donno exactly where i am heading. Last 2 years have been the height of total madness family matters, personal matter and screwing up acads. Though i am not complaining or blaming any one, but it has made me stronger and feel more responsible towards life . at 24 i am still a student doing my second masters. just for the heck of being passionate about education.

Though during my last 2 year stay at IIML i didnt learn much from course . but learnt a lot, as how to cope with life and move on with ups- and downs. there is some thing in my mind that always flashes across when i feel senti " i will work 24*7 if money could buy hapiness in life" . I recall my closest pals Bose , Chaith , Niz and Santu very often. I donno what i had been with out their presence in this world.

Had seen my friends pressure during their placement process. their height of happiness after their placement.

I told mom that i am unable to forget her for the n th time, though tried hard. every one says same, it is some thing which only i can do and no one can do abt some thing which is in my mind. its my bad luck or misfortune to crib abt some thing which is like a star in sky. My love had given me some of the most cherished and lovely dreams. I promised myself as atleast till i stand on my own feet, i wd not indulge in any thing that wd mess up my life.

I just want to make sure that all these kind of things r temporary in life. If not her, definitely somebody else wd come and fill the gap in my life and i need to b happy and content with what life has bestowed me with. i cannot keep dreaming abt a star in sky.

I hardly dreamt of any thing for last 6 months. though my eyes r very lively and colurful . i always keep a grin on my face , donno what my eyes r reading but y mind is unable to understand what my eyes r reading.

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