After a long time i am back to my blog. Well i have deleted my earlier blog. its a hard decision as wheater to keep that blog or not. its very special to me . All my friends say that my blog reflected suffering in me . both in life and love. . Yes to some extent it really does pain me . If i recall my dreams, i get my eyes wet. I had fallen in love with a perfect stranger, tried hard to forget her and move on my path which i missed. i try to control myself moving on in life . donno exactly where i am heading. Last 2 years have been the height of total madness family matters, personal matter and screwing up acads. Though i am not complaining or blaming any one, but it has made me stronger and feel more responsible towards life . at 24 i am still a student doing my second masters. just for the heck of being passionate about education.
Though during my last 2 year stay at IIML i didnt learn much from course . but learnt a lot, as how to cope with life and move on with ups- and downs. there is some thing in my mind that always flashes across when i feel senti " i will work 24*7 if money could buy hapiness in life" . I recall my closest pals Bose , Chaith , Niz and Santu very often. I donno what i had been with out their presence in this world.
Had seen my friends pressure during their placement process. their height of happiness after their placement.
I told mom that i am unable to forget her for the n th time, though tried hard. every one says same, it is some thing which only i can do and no one can do abt some thing which is in my mind. its my bad luck or misfortune to crib abt some thing which is like a star in sky. My love had given me some of the most cherished and lovely dreams. I promised myself as atleast till i stand on my own feet, i wd not indulge in any thing that wd mess up my life.
I just want to make sure that all these kind of things r temporary in life. If not her, definitely somebody else wd come and fill the gap in my life and i need to b happy and content with what life has bestowed me with. i cannot keep dreaming abt a star in sky.
I hardly dreamt of any thing for last 6 months. though my eyes r very lively and colurful . i always keep a grin on my face , donno what my eyes r reading but y mind is unable to understand what my eyes r reading.
