3 mental states in me

I think i have 3 states in me and how i feel of life in each such state...

When i am positive - Life is beautiful
realistic - Life is a traitor, it wd betray you some day
pessimistic - Life sucks!!


I think this sums up as how i think of the things ard me.

Statement of Purpose

Placement fever has started in campus. The most arduous and painful task for many of the students is filling the company forms. Because short listing of candidates for interview is dependant on the quality of the answers we give. Those who are good at globing might write great stuff, but lesser mortals like me are horrible at globing. I made a serious effort to write my first SOP in life. First I tried my hand at globing. Then I asked my friends to review the same. I got one of the most pathetic n horrible reviews of my writing. So I realised that even after an MBA I am useless at globe. My friends gave me some inputs and insights as what I should write in a SOP, based on that I made few points over which I should focus my essay. The following are the main points on which I based my essay:

1. Mention the purpose of your life.
2. What YOU intend to do in YOUR life
3. Highlight your goals in life and what you desire from it?
4. There should be a clear link with your short term goals
5. Why you are applying to this company?
6. Back up your claims with relevant experiences, qualifications, specific skills.

I took a deep breathe and started writing straight and frank. I didn’t let my thoughts go out of my mind; I wrote a candid expression of the points which I wanted to include in my essay. After I finished writing my essay, I sent this across to my friends for review, to my surprise none of them made even a single comment to that. I surprised myself that I really wrote my SOP. It’s hard to write up about our whole purpose of life on a small sheet of paper still I answered all the points which I wanted to include in my essay.

So here goes my SOP:

I come from a family of teachers. Since childhood, I was taught that upholding one’s values is the most important thing in one’s life. I am inspired by my grandfather, who had a passion to teach children and improve their lives, is till date a constant source of inspiration to me.

Since my childhood, I get disturbed whenever I see people who cannot afford to send their children to schools or give them medical facilities. I was determined to become a doctor and start a school and medical services centre for the underprivileged.

Unfortunately, my disability dashed my hopes of becoming a doctor. Learning at school had become a painful, arduous task. Also, my parents were worried about my health and my future. I decided that despite my disability I would reach greater heights in my life and make my parents proud. I excelled in all the schools I attended and was consistently ranked among the top students.

I did my graduation in software which helped me to grasp the basics of information technology. Later I did my masters’ in Information systems as I want to get a bigger picture as how I can inculcate this technology into solving people’s needs. Later, I realized that I need to be equipped with managerial skills to handle larger responsibilities in life. This led me to pursue a MBA, which has enhanced my skills and capabilities apart from broadening my horizon of thinking.

As a budding manager, I believe I can contribute to your organization with my deep functional knowledge in finance and Information technology. I know that you are a socially conscious business house dedicated to improving the quality of life of the communities in which you operate. This has widely impacted my decision to apply; which is in sync with my goal of serving the society to improve their living.

A brief on my career plans in long term and short term:

In short term I seek to learn the practical aspects of business functioning across different domains I also wish to gain a good understanding of different industries and sectors which would help me in delivering greater value to my organisation and attain expertise in the field of my work.

In long term I have 3 major goals:

1. I should be in a major leadership position handling responsibilities across diverse businesses and recognised in the industry as an expert in the field of my work.
2. To do a PhD in Business Economics from a top university and fulfil my desire to get in to academia and disseminate the knowledge I have gained from my experience.
3. To start a school for under privileged children who cannot afford to go for good schools and add value in their life.

I would like to thank my friends Shiva Kumar Ramaswamy, Krishna Agarwal, V Krupashankar, Kalyani V, Neeraj Trivedi, and Abhishek Choudary for their inputs and valuable time to edit and review my SOP.

What I want in life?

I am trying to figure out for a while as what I want to do. And what I want in this life. Well it’s a very vague thing that I can word up. I figured out that all I want in life is to keep myself and my world happy. So to be happy what I need to do is the question. This is a question that I need to address from different angles like work wise, personal life wise, etc. For me any thing that I like to do and I perform well makes me happy work wise. Personal life wise I would like to spend time with my loved ones without compromising on my work i.e., I want a good work life balance. I am not very ambitious about making money as long as I earn a particular sum that meets my end needs.

So to keep my self happy at work I am little choosy and particular about the work place because I am kind of disabled, people find it hard to converse with me. At times few feel like I m pestering them. It does pain anyone but I don’t have a choice. I try to talk minimal so that I don’t bother others much. I have people like my mom, Bose, chelli to talk to me all the time. They lighten up my day. A good work place for me is where I feel the atmosphere conductive and collaborative for both me and my employer. I was once tortured at my work place in Mumbai. I don’t want to have such experience again, it made me feel dying. Of course I am certain that life won’t be a smooth cake walk, I like the bumpy ride with lots of ups and downs and still moving on in life. I am prepared to take risks. Of course life would be boring with out any challenges to face. So I believe that IBM is one of the good places for me to work for. And most probably I might accept this offer. So here it ends for the day.

Confused Mumblings !!!!!!

Once upon a time, there was a kid with dreams of making it big in life. But as a kid he was amateur and doesn’t have any idea as what it takes to be big. He dreamt of being a pilot, a logistics operator, a doctor, an engineer, a scientist, a cop, a diplomat, a politician; literally he thought of every possible role that takes to make it big in life.

As he grew up he faced a lot of unfortunate things and they lowered his spirits and motivated him to fight back. He won few and he lost few. He couldn’t succeed something that was in his mind- a major career decision as what to do in life because of some constraints.

Due to this debacle he even went on to the extent of thinking of starting a dairy farm and running a cattle and making livelihood out of milking buffaloes and cows. Then he was happy that rather than dreaming big it would be good to be simple and enjoy the fun of running a dairy farm. He couldn’t succeed in this endeavor too as his father wanted him to do some thing related to technology that would lead to making big money. This kid was still help less and a novice, being a dependent …. He didn’t had much choice as what to do. He simply agreed to follow what his parents said. He studied and made his folks happy.

He saw the real world of opportunities once he enters college. There are so many things to do in this world, but he doesn’t know what he can do and what he wants to do. He just moved on in life with what ever that came his way and went college hopelessly and with no objective actually. He also attends a big school to see the world out there. He sees the world from a broader perspective, but couldn’t assimilate it.

He likes doing anything when some thing interests him. But his interests are very varied. He wants to do social service like charity, child upliftment, teach children, pursue a doctoral degree in Economics and finance, travel around this world, and keep his folks happy and an unending list of things. But when he gets a job, he doesn’t even know what he is going to do. He doesn’t have any major goals in life. But was still confused about himself like a kid lost in woods and keeps seeking advice of every one around him as what he should do…. So he sits and starts to think and starts writing down as what he should do and what he wants to be and end up writing this blog of confused mumblings!!!!

Dilemma.........

Of late a lot of pressure had been off on me, from the moment I came to know about my pre placement offer. It was not a big surprise though as during the concluding day of my internship I was asked by the location head that if I am interested to work for them. Till now I was waiting for the official confirmation of that. And finally I came to know about that. I felt happy and relieved as there won’t be any more placements pressure.

I felt very lazy as if life is going to settle well with a handsome pay and all the fancy things which I dreamt are going to be a reality. But a little more of soul searching made me listen my inner voice that……… is what I am doing right? Is what I wanted to do is what I got? Well I don’t have any clear cut answers. Even I am a kind of arbit guy.

On a serious note till now whole of my life I never had the freedom to do what I wanted to do… more so I was compelled to do sum thing because I dint had a choice or I am not allowed to choose what I wanted to. I didn’t have a clear direction as what I wanted in life. I was a day dreamer during my adolescent years. Dreams of becoming a doctor were buried when I was told that my hearing is an irreparable loss. My parents made a sensible decision and convinced me to drop my plans of studying medicine. My masochism made me suck the most crucial things in life at the right time though no complaints.

Though with no interest in IT my parents joined me in to computers which was then a hot property in market. I hated it from the very day that my parent’s r being lured with the kind of money the then software engineers are making. I hate it when some one compares me to others. Y do I need to be compared with others? Especially in terms of how much they earn.

Now, I am on verge of completing this MBA, I am still not clear what kind of work I want to do. I am deaf … I cannot converse well. I am not fit for all kind of jobs. I am compelled to choose from the very few job roles which suit my capabilities. Sad to say but I don’t have choice. Well of the available options again it was IT which suits my capabilities. Other than this is research. Well I am interested in doing research work for investment banking. I am not sure if this is what I want to do then. Still wondering what should I do now? Should I go with my job offer or to try research or backend finance roles in investment banks? ……….