Of late a lot of pressure had been off on me, from the moment I came to know about my pre placement offer. It was not a big surprise though as during the concluding day of my internship I was asked by the location head that if I am interested to work for them. Till now I was waiting for the official confirmation of that. And finally I came to know about that. I felt happy and relieved as there won’t be any more placements pressure.
I felt very lazy as if life is going to settle well with a handsome pay and all the fancy things which I dreamt are going to be a reality. But a little more of soul searching made me listen my inner voice that……… is what I am doing right? Is what I wanted to do is what I got? Well I don’t have any clear cut answers. Even I am a kind of arbit guy.
On a serious note till now whole of my life I never had the freedom to do what I wanted to do… more so I was compelled to do sum thing because I dint had a choice or I am not allowed to choose what I wanted to. I didn’t have a clear direction as what I wanted in life. I was a day dreamer during my adolescent years. Dreams of becoming a doctor were buried when I was told that my hearing is an irreparable loss. My parents made a sensible decision and convinced me to drop my plans of studying medicine. My masochism made me suck the most crucial things in life at the right time though no complaints.
Though with no interest in IT my parents joined me in to computers which was then a hot property in market. I hated it from the very day that my parent’s r being lured with the kind of money the then software engineers are making. I hate it when some one compares me to others. Y do I need to be compared with others? Especially in terms of how much they earn.
Now, I am on verge of completing this MBA, I am still not clear what kind of work I want to do. I am deaf … I cannot converse well. I am not fit for all kind of jobs. I am compelled to choose from the very few job roles which suit my capabilities. Sad to say but I don’t have choice. Well of the available options again it was IT which suits my capabilities. Other than this is research. Well I am interested in doing research work for investment banking. I am not sure if this is what I want to do then. Still wondering what should I do now? Should I go with my job offer or to try research or backend finance roles in investment banks? ……….
I felt very lazy as if life is going to settle well with a handsome pay and all the fancy things which I dreamt are going to be a reality. But a little more of soul searching made me listen my inner voice that……… is what I am doing right? Is what I wanted to do is what I got? Well I don’t have any clear cut answers. Even I am a kind of arbit guy.
On a serious note till now whole of my life I never had the freedom to do what I wanted to do… more so I was compelled to do sum thing because I dint had a choice or I am not allowed to choose what I wanted to. I didn’t have a clear direction as what I wanted in life. I was a day dreamer during my adolescent years. Dreams of becoming a doctor were buried when I was told that my hearing is an irreparable loss. My parents made a sensible decision and convinced me to drop my plans of studying medicine. My masochism made me suck the most crucial things in life at the right time though no complaints.
Though with no interest in IT my parents joined me in to computers which was then a hot property in market. I hated it from the very day that my parent’s r being lured with the kind of money the then software engineers are making. I hate it when some one compares me to others. Y do I need to be compared with others? Especially in terms of how much they earn.
Now, I am on verge of completing this MBA, I am still not clear what kind of work I want to do. I am deaf … I cannot converse well. I am not fit for all kind of jobs. I am compelled to choose from the very few job roles which suit my capabilities. Sad to say but I don’t have choice. Well of the available options again it was IT which suits my capabilities. Other than this is research. Well I am interested in doing research work for investment banking. I am not sure if this is what I want to do then. Still wondering what should I do now? Should I go with my job offer or to try research or backend finance roles in investment banks? ……….
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