All about being Happy :)

It had been a very long time since I blogged. So many things worth mentioning have happened but words don’t come when I actually sit down to write a post. Firstly, I would like to wish every body a very happy new year 2009. This had been my first New Year eve after I turned 12 years old where I have slept peacefully. Didn’t made any big plans, most of my friends are fragmented across different places. Unfortunately my brother too had a night work shift that day, so I was alone at home and didn’t find any thing better to do than to sleep. And I succeeded in doing what I am best at :).

For some time I feel like giving up every damn thing as what’s the point and purpose of doing some thing. I am getting bored very easily. Not getting much enthu to read books either. Every body says there is life beyond job and relationships – which I don’t understand and I totally gave up on these fronts. I am a big idiot when it comes to the matter of relationships and in job- I had good and bad phase. And also learnt that no job is good nor bad. Every job is perceptional. If you love what you do, it’s the end of it, cos it gives a very satisfying experience as some thing to look forward to life. My life at work is too chill, so unable to keep myself busy. Whenever I feel so desperate and frustrated I sense some opportunity knocking me to do some thing new and afresh – some thing to look forward to in life. I don’t understand why life is this way as we need to try and put effort to do some thing to derive happiness and this happiness is in bits and pieces. Why we can’t have all the happiness in one go.

When I sense some opportunity, as in some thing to look forward to, and accomplishing it gives me a high and makes me feel happy. For example I made a disciplined and determined effort to attend fitness classes regularly and in last 1 month I lost 4 kilos weight. It made me feel lean and happy. Apart from these small things through which I derive happiness, I always question why I should do some thing. When I was in college I had minimal interest in acads, I always argued with my mom that its boring to do some thing I am not interested in. Mom always asked me to sit in first bench and listen what teacher says and study well like a good boy… but the only thing I did sitting on first bench is Sleep!. (And I sort of mastered it too). I asked her many times as why I should do some thing and her only answer is I should do it for her.

So far what ever I did was to keep my folks happy. If some thing makes them happy I just did it. Now that I am staying away from my folks and my mom/dad doesn’t understand the nature of my work. (The only thing they understand is a s/w engineer cos every idiot’s claim to fame in last one decade is though a s/w job). For some time I am trying to figure out as what else “I” can do to keep myself happy because so far I did for my folks happiness and now I am trying to figure out what I can do to keep myself happy.

I think few small things in life that make me happy are:
==> Being independent
==> Doing stuff on my own, be it cooking / household things
==> Working out regularly because it makes me feel energetic and fit.
==> Learn playing a keyboard (had been dreaming this for a long time, just skeptic if being deaf makes any sense for me to learn)
==> Watching movies / drama’s with subtitles and knowing lyrics of songs.
==> Making friends and meeting them
==> Playing with kids
==> Sharing knowledge
==> Learning new things

Guys, would appreciate if you could help me more in this regard.

Will try to eschew my laziness and post blogs on a regular basis. I am not promising any thing though. Bye Take care!